Home school lesson - achieved with various grades

Day two.
I have had a big day sorting out my now working from home regime as a person who actually has to put their hands on and touch everyone, all the time, and get paid for it. Telehealth feels quite viscerally lacking. But, am grateful for the work and I can embrace the new virtual. Home school lesson . Resilience - Achieved with pass.
I notice the boys are asking me 'Are you OK, Mum?' more today than any other day I remember. Maybe its the vacant stare while standing in the middle of the lounge with a mobile phone in one hand and a vacuum cleaner hose under my arm and 3 pack of baked beans in my pocket and the days global death toll spinning around my head. Home school lesson - Be nice to mum because she's a horses tail hair width from spazzing totally out - Achieved with excellence.
I bought a 1000 piece puzzle yesterday that Missy started this am before 8am. This wee thing gave me my truly peaceful moments in the day (am referring to puzzle, not child). A thousand pieces of the waterway in front of Notre Dame Cathedral, noticing the precise shade of green under the cathedral compared to the still dank green of  still waters and the fractured carnage of the full sun beside the river barge. A world smashed into a  myriad of reflections of light, subtle nuances of days gone by and days to come, what will and may and may never happen. I was going to tell the kids - 'This is Notre dame, chaps, fat chance you'll ever see it.', but my husband thought that was going a bit grim. Home school lesson - Keep it cool and relentlessly positive -  Not achieved.
I am influenced heavily by the amount of apocalyptic reading I've done. Not sure if that's helping right now. I keep looking out for the zombie vampire hoards. I feel an over whelming sense of doom, and I hit tearful alert level 2 tonight. But this is a short term quite lengthy paralysis. I can't remember my work colleagues names when trying to email them, and I saw them yesterday. I know this is cognitive overload, my brain cannot manage to  hold onto certain bits of information due to over riding hyper sympathetic over drive. My fight response is fueling all the actions and thoughts. Except for the blue sky edges of the puzzle above Notre dame. They are perfectly shaped bliss balls.
I realized today the true benefit of school besides education. Tires the little fuckers out. Especially the teenagers. All day long they have lounged on various pieces of furniture and technology. They managed an olympic effort late morning in folding and delivering the papers hitting at least 200m from home. Fueled by 1.5kgs of cereal and half a months worth of milk. Essential work. Apart from that they await the google classroom call to duty with a PS4 controller in one hand and a cereal ladle in the other. Until 930 pm, when they spark up with a days worth of energy and start hanging all the soft toys with shoe laces, throwing sneakers at heads and singing their usually buried emotions into hysterics. The world becomes a bad opera at 2130. Here are the energy vampires, out to attack. Must remember to recommend they put more stairs in those new school buildings, God Bless Teachers. Home school lesson, appreciation for teachers and school - Achieved with excellence.